I am a living breathing contradiction.
I hate you,
Don't leave me,
I need you,
Fuck off.
I don't know myself
Yet I hate myself.
I am empty
Yet I carry the sadness of every man woman and child on this earth.
I feel their suffering pulse through my brain
Yet my veins run cold,
Empty and alone.
Homeless and roaming
Owned only by my illness.
Hold me
Make me stop shaking
And aching for you
I told you to go
Now come the fuck back
Before I attack myself.
On the borderline between sanity and utter collapse.
Come back.
Please come back.
I love you
I love you so
I love you more than you could know
Should I die
Then when I do
I'd go to Heaven
And wait for you
And if you weren't there
On Judgement Day
I'd know you'd gone the other way
So I'd give back
The wings and crown
Turn on my heels
And head on down
And just to prove my love is true
I'd go to Hell to be with you
Sit down, I want to tell you something! by WordOfChen, literature
Literature
Sit down, I want to tell you something!
Sit down for a second,
Because I want to tell you something.
I want to tell you and everybody else that walked over me.
That today, I have become something!
Just walk with me for a second,
I want to show you something.
You remember this; is it all falling into place?
Cause this is where you shut me down.
Now I didn't know what I was supposed to do;
Excuse me for being a loser, right?
I had to work up a lot of courage to ask you out.
But you didn't even look at anything beneath the surface.
So of course, you just flipped me off and walked away.
Thank you.
Because of you I went to the gym every single day.
Because of you I started lifting
I can't think I can't breathe I don't know where I'm going or where I've been or If I'm really here at all is this some sort of dream am I dead am I here does it even matter any more? I'm falling, falling, falling, falling I've hit rock bottom I've found a shovel I'm digging, I'm digging, I'm digging and I've hit gold and I've found riches but I don't need them there's no point in them so I'm still digging and I've hit oil and I'm covered in thick oil and it's dark and it disgusting and I can't breathe and I can't see and I can't do anything because I'm still digging and the oil is filling up my lungs and I can't breathe and I'm still digging
i.
like being held,
but not as
a hand nor
breath;
hands shy away
and breaths exit
the chest.
constant, like
god's palm
or breathing,
continuous
and absolute.
like truth.
ii.
like staying warm,
but not like noon
or flame;
noon wanes
and flickers in the evening
meet death.
constant, like
rotations in space
or stars in the eyes
of humans.
like blessed.
iii.
like kept,
but not contained
nor restrained
nor forced to be one way,
not asked to change nor pressured
to step where the path
is lit.
like your personness is quite
the gift and your smile
lifts up the heavens, and when
you exist we are all of us
content.
like you matter
and your mass
Stop putting words in my mouth by Tangled-Tales, literature
Literature
Stop putting words in my mouth
You shove your fingers
down my throat,
and insert words
I never spoke,
in desperate hopes
to make me choke
but beware:
my pearly gates
won't hesitate
to bite
the hand
that feeds me
I Tear My Skin Away
I tear this skin from my body,
And run...
Even if the world screams,
That I am only an illusion.
I tear the bones from my legs,
And crawl.
Through pain, I will grow,
Through suffering, I will become.
I rip the muscles from my arms,
These teeth from my jaws...
And with nothing upon me,
I carry on...
Like a broken puppet, still shivering,
Still forcing its way through the darkness;
I tremble for I am nothing...
And yet, I am moving. My voice still screams...
I draw breath into these tired lungs,
As I rip the flesh away...
And I shatter these mirrors before me,
With a voice that will not break:
Because the world can
The Memories Will Stay by Mr-Scarlet-Nokitsune, literature
Literature
The Memories Will Stay
You looked at me and in that moment I saw the lights go out
The spirit that had once burned like wildfire went away
Yet I know now, without a doubt
All the memories you left will always stay
I felt the stab of pain, I felt the ache deep inside
There was a tearing, a throbbing wound left in your wake
And I knew there was too much sadness for even me to hide
So I voiced my pain to my protector, this was no mistake
You're not forgotten, no amount of crying or tears,
Can erase your memory from my mind
There's so very much you've left here
So many memories you left behind
Tonight the pain is fresh, the hurt is brand new
My heart is no
No matter where my life leads.
No matter what I do.
If I´m happy or feeling sad,
I´ll still be missing you.
Some days my feelings take me over.
Some days I just feel blue.
You´re ever present in my thoughts
and still I´m missing you.
My heart is now so empty
but it beats and beats anew,
until my last and dying breath.
I´ll go on missing you.
10th May 2016